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i am alive. my heart beats, each pump stretching the stitches, but i am healing. my lungs fill with oxygen and hope and i pray i can do this for another day, pray that one day i will welcome the sensation of opening my eyes and taking my first breath of the day, because i am healing.
because i am alive.
i am not dead. my blood sticks to the confines of my veins and my guts don't spill out onto the floor when i unwrap my arms from myself. my knuckles crack when i ball my hands into fists and my muscles flex when i move, because i am strong.
because i am not dead.
i am still here. my name is still tagged on the wall behind the old school, even though they tore it down, it still exists somewhere, though maybe only in pieces, my name is still written on the world. my foot prints are still on the moon, because i exist.
because i am still here.
i can't be who i was, but i can be who i want to be. i steal snatches of my friends' gestures and behaviors and sew them into my skin. i am a collage of people who may or may not exist anymore, and maybe they never existed at all, but i am still who i want to be.
i do not know who i am, but i am still alive.
because i am alive.
i am not dead. my blood sticks to the confines of my veins and my guts don't spill out onto the floor when i unwrap my arms from myself. my knuckles crack when i ball my hands into fists and my muscles flex when i move, because i am strong.
because i am not dead.
i am still here. my name is still tagged on the wall behind the old school, even though they tore it down, it still exists somewhere, though maybe only in pieces, my name is still written on the world. my foot prints are still on the moon, because i exist.
because i am still here.
i can't be who i was, but i can be who i want to be. i steal snatches of my friends' gestures and behaviors and sew them into my skin. i am a collage of people who may or may not exist anymore, and maybe they never existed at all, but i am still who i want to be.
i do not know who i am, but i am still alive.
Literature
suicide is overrated.
you traced my scars
some were raised, some caved in
and in my ear you whispered
'why do you do this to yourself?'
i thought it over for a long time.
'so no one else can.'
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you have a
tattoo of a swallow
soaring up your wrist
you always told me you got it because
you could never fly.
you didn't need wings
to fly away from me.
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you trail your fingers down my sides,
counting all of my ribs.
a curious look appear in your eyes,
and you murmered to me-
'you are not beautiful.'
i told you i knew that.
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love is not the only thing i'm starving myself of.
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sunrise, sunset, unrise, unset
you rise
like a cancerous sun
and orbit away from
me, this, everything
(nothing = synonym)
you set
and you're (g)(one)
for a not-her night
(i need a calendar)
you rise,
swing two steps to the left,
and disappear to your star-
Less skies; no, wait, you've
got a star. but you're apart
of anot(me)her constellation
(please let me eat the moon)
you set
me, UP, (on your pedestal)
TO FA_L
like a chain reaction;
butterfly contraption
(i sink like a domino)
your eyes
follow me.
like a poor trai
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the ways we destroy ourselves.
one.
we were silences stretched out,
lingering in the pitter-patter of muffled
heartbeats. we were broken glass
digging into too-fragile lungs, we were
the shaking of the nervous earth beneath
our feet. we were bitter unforgiveness and
the screams of the world around us, we were
empty spaces, we were
everything but beautiful.
two.
happiness is on vacation.
three.
life is a sidewalk, he told me. life is a sidewalk,
and regret and pain and tears are the cracks,
and sometimes, he tells me,
sometimes, you can't fill them.
four.
there's a shatter in the next room, a broken
breath, a shaking in the bones.
we're all broken,
darl
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because i am alive.
this is how i feel.
i suppose i tried to be inspirational.
i feel like a caterpillar coming out of its cocoon. i do not know who i am anymore, but hopefully i am more beautiful. i do not know who i will be, but i can know what i want to be.
stressful weekend, and by that i mean you have no idea what i've been through in three days, but i am still alive.
and this isn't about love, it's about surviving it, finally seeing the light at the end of the tunnel.
this is how i feel.
i suppose i tried to be inspirational.
i feel like a caterpillar coming out of its cocoon. i do not know who i am anymore, but hopefully i am more beautiful. i do not know who i will be, but i can know what i want to be.
stressful weekend, and by that i mean you have no idea what i've been through in three days, but i am still alive.
and this isn't about love, it's about surviving it, finally seeing the light at the end of the tunnel.
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I like it! Very powerful!