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i never realized
how many accidents there are
until i moved next to the fire station.
i hear them go by at least
ten times a day.
so i wonder
how many people
flick cigarette butts
into gas cans
or dogs pull over grills
or toddlers stick their fingers
in electrical sockets.
sockets.
eye sockets.
i'd like to gouge out my eyes,
somedays.
it would keep me from seeing
what a mistake i was.
did you see?
i knicked myself shaving.
there was a lot of pretty blood;
it sat around the drain,
refusing to be swallowed up.
kind of like you,
i thought.
you were never part of the crowd.
but then again,
neither was i.
and even though i was alone,
i never felt lonely
until you showed me how it felt
to be happy.
maybe i never felt like i belonged with you,
but you made me feel
like i was wanted,
at least.
wanted:
a heart that will beat regularly.
will trade:
emptied eye sockets
and empty pockets.
i have a lot of nothing.
nothing.
i think that's what i've always had.
when i had something,
i lost everything i didn't have.
i missed what was never mine,
so i gave that something back
so i could have nothing again.
and now i am nothing.
you don't look surprised.
well, that's okay.
i don't feel surprised either.
how many accidents there are
until i moved next to the fire station.
i hear them go by at least
ten times a day.
so i wonder
how many people
flick cigarette butts
into gas cans
or dogs pull over grills
or toddlers stick their fingers
in electrical sockets.
sockets.
eye sockets.
i'd like to gouge out my eyes,
somedays.
it would keep me from seeing
what a mistake i was.
did you see?
i knicked myself shaving.
there was a lot of pretty blood;
it sat around the drain,
refusing to be swallowed up.
kind of like you,
i thought.
you were never part of the crowd.
but then again,
neither was i.
and even though i was alone,
i never felt lonely
until you showed me how it felt
to be happy.
maybe i never felt like i belonged with you,
but you made me feel
like i was wanted,
at least.
wanted:
a heart that will beat regularly.
will trade:
emptied eye sockets
and empty pockets.
i have a lot of nothing.
nothing.
i think that's what i've always had.
when i had something,
i lost everything i didn't have.
i missed what was never mine,
so i gave that something back
so i could have nothing again.
and now i am nothing.
you don't look surprised.
well, that's okay.
i don't feel surprised either.
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what we didn't want came true
it was you against me and me against the wall
pushing and shoving into me, forcing apart my legs
i felt my hips dig into yours and my head hit the flat surface
i screamed and screamed and screamed but nothing happened except
the touch of your lips against my skin, and under it the breaking of my brittle bones
you clasped your hands around my throat and held tight
the air began to close off, and my lungs felt weak
tears appeared and bruises started to swell all over my body
"stop" i plead, but you just laughed
and unbuttoned my blouse.
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it were days like today where i felt
used, broken and too fucked up
to even glance at my
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let the sky be lost.
you and i,
we're not cut-outs from a story-book.
not misshaped and deformed pieces
of a broken star, unable to burst into
a supernova.
you're just the truth.
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'i'm not telling you i love you
if i don't mean it. i hate when people
do that. they don't know what it
means.'
'so you won't say it?'
'no, i won't. not yet. not until i do.'
'that's good,' i smile a bit.
'something wrong?'
'not really.'
'no, you don't get it.'
'i don't think i do.'
'telling someone you love them when you
don't is like going to a tea party dressed
up in a ball gown: overdoing it. and nobody
cares. only the person in the gown cares.
all it does is
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Further Away
She walks away from me,
And I don't know how it makes me feel
It seems to be slipping away,
And I don't know if was even real
My mind screams stay!
But part of me wouldn't have it any other way
It's like they always say:
One step closer,
Another step further away
She walks on water to me...
Wherever she is ...is where I want to be
It gets harder to take each day,
She walks away from all the promises I make
I hear myself scream.....
Don't you walk away from me!
But like a vision that I sense,
She disappears into the mist
To have her by my side,
Is the one thing I've always prayed
But every time I get near her,
She just seem
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i honestly do feel like crying.
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"i'd like to gouge out my eyes,
somedays.
it would keep me from seeing
what a mistake i was."
somedays.
it would keep me from seeing
what a mistake i was."