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do you know?

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01.

do you know how badly
she wanted you to breathe?
she'd take polaroid snapshots of the air around you
and she stuck all onehundredeightythree photos
in a little photo album
that she labelled help
so that, maybe,
if she helped you take those breaths
she could finally be your reason for living
since she could never be
just by herself.

02.

do you know how badly
she loved you?
everytime you stepped into the room
it seemed like you'd replaced all the oxygen
and she couldn't breathe
but she loved that glorious feeling of you filling her lungs
pulsing through her veins
and even when she got lightheaded and saw stars
not one of them was more brilliant
than you.

03.

do you know how badly
she missed you?
she spent every night awake until the sun came up,
waiting for her phone to ring
and your name to flash on the screen
but all she ever got
was a beep and a warning: low battery
and those dark circles under her eyes
and she wrote you letters
telling you everything she couldn't push past her lips
but she never gave them to the mailman
because she didn't want them back
returned to sender.

04.

does she know how badly
you love her?
does she know that you sit in the dark of your room
and that you trace her name on your forearm
and you wish on all the stars
that you can see just outside your window
that she would come back and stay with you forever
and that you take onehundredeightythree breaths
and with each one
you thank her for it since you already know
that she is still your reason for living
even though you let her go
and that you wish you'd get a call from her
telling you that she still loves you, still.
and you know you'd whisper that apology stuck at the back of your throat that you've been choking on.

--

first stanza inspired by 'callomania' by the incredible *paperheartsyndrome

yeah...i guess i'm happy with this, even though i wrote it in...10 minutes.
it's amazing, what time does.

[how i wish i could say any of this (except maybe the last stanza) was true.]

poem (c) ~L-forever
© 2009 - 2024 L-forever
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TheGlassDragon's avatar
I love the idea of the Polaroids, clever and moving : D